It’s Not A Secret If Everyone Knows About It

After reading a post on So Anyway about private blogging, I’ve come to the conclusion that I still don’t really understand it.  If you post on the web, someone’s going to find it–most likely it will be the person who you’d least like to find it.  Password protection seems a bit pointless and iffy–after all, passwords can be cracked.  And if more than one person knows a password, the chances of it getting out are magnified.  So what’s wrong with the old pen and paper and keeping the files offline?  If you truly do not want an audience, that’s what you’d do.  But people don’t do that.  Instead, they do this private blogging bit, submerged in an illusion where they get to control the audience.

The thing is, you can’t.  If people really want to read your stuff, they will.

However, people can password protect their blogs if they want.  I’m not saying that they can’t.  It’s like me not understanding why some people like durian or why someone would paint their house sea foam green.  What I really can’t wrap my head around is the fact that some people have private blogs yet they publicize it, trying to get more readers.  It’s like they don’t understand the term “private.”  If you’re going to be serious about private blogging, keep it that way.  Posting links to your private blog to public forums defeats the entire purpose.

As you can see, I blog under a pseudonym.  One could argue that I’m practicing a form of private blogging and that I shouldn’t be calling the kettle black.  But it isn’t about that at all.  I’ve always been aware that people in real life would find my writings online.  Indeed, they have*.  This isn’t something that I actively seek or hide.  But I don’t normally talk about my online babbling because I don’t think it’s that interesting.  Blogging is navel gazing.  But people are nosy, I suppose.  Someone (who thinks this pseudonym thing is some elaborate cat-and-mouse game I’ve concocted) once remarked to me, “Now that we’ve found you, I bet you’re going to make up a new pseudonym and disappear again.”  That’s too much work.  I’m already too heavily invested with what I’ve managed to carve out (or not) with this particular internet handle.

I merely wanted to make a distinction between two personas–what I am and how I think–with an emphasis on distinction.  Because when people do a cursory Google search, of course it’s going to reveal only certain aspects of me.  If anyone wants to figure me out more personally, they’re just going to have to do a little more digging–just like in real life.

*Yes, undergrads with too much time on their hands, I mean you.